I am new to blogging/journaling/writing thing. But I need something to keep me going.
I've cried every day since I lost my baby boy Roosevelt Washington IV. He was born 11/11/11 at 9:08 pm and became an angel the same night at 9:45 pm. I have so many emotions and I don't know what to do with them. It is hard being on "maternity leave" and I am home with no baby. I miss him so much. I am so thankful that I got to meet him. No one wanted him more than I did. My heart is broken. I try to think positively but it is so hard. I think about him squeezing my hand, his tiny feet and hands, and the time we spent together. I also think about what if he was her, how would life be, who would he look like, and what would he grow to be.
I feel as if my body failed me hellp syndrome and preeclampsia have broken me... but I still love my Angel Baby RWIV
Mommy loves you and misses you so much. I am sorry that I could not do anything to save you. It is so hard without you hear but I know you are in a better place. I put up the Christmas Tree yesterday but it was a bittersweet moment. I am waiting on your ornaments to add to the tree. You will always be in my heart.
Love Mommy :-)